WATERWHEELS

and when he says i love you
is that description
or performance ?

and when she sits alone in the kitchen
drinking coffee from a mug
looking out of the window
is she play acting ?
and for whom ?

i watch ricardo lighting a cigarette
as his stocky legs carry him forwards to his parked car
i catch a glimpse of  a reflection of a shadow of another´s life

i need some cord, a few balls of string and a well-weathered stone
to join me to this world

IF NOT ME, BROTHER, SISTER

So I write every day
on my brain screen
not my world, not my world
as water trickles and plants are growing
this my world consists of basic nonsense
political, historical, social developments
personal events, drama, emotions
pass me by
pass me by
a beggar
too proud to beg
a beggar
eyes not seeing, heart not pumping
words not speaking
an unordered house
i hope and trust
that you are doing better !

Realisation

after the news came
she closed the shop
went upstairs
felt suddenly very tired
am i not who i was yesterday ?
she hurled a glass to the floor

At a place

John Addleton drank some coffee, but it was already tepid, so he set the cup aside. He stroked his moustache and as he sat at his desk, waiting, sentences formed and occupied his mind "I have to go right back", "a play without meaning", "we don´t connect", "where is my mummy?" At five to ten, he checked his tie, pen, briefcase, the shine on his leather shoes, he blew his nose, opened the door and walked towards the chamber. Others milling around outside : "good to see you, Addleton old man, may I introduce ......?","in my opinion just get rid of them, and fast"," how are the children doing ?" "budgetary constraints are all voluntary, as you know." They went inside for the debate, which produced few surprises. At one point Addleton realised that the voices were still in his head " go right back, you have to go right back, right back to the start." At which point he coughed and his coughing, exacerbated by the dry air in the chamber, was so persistent that he had to go out so as not to overly disturb proceedings. He sat on a wooden chair by the door, handkerchief in hand, his eyes wet. It looked a little bit like he had been crying. Two cleaning ladies went by with their mops and brooms and once safely out of earshot laughed at him :" looks like someone stole his favorite toy, poor old Mr. Addleton."

UNDER THE FULL MOON

4 in the morning
asleep on the roof
i wake
moon like a lightbulb
clouds like bedsheets
a dream serves up a reality

she had been swimming naked near the rocks
i bring her a towel that scarcely covers her
she walks over to the young man
her hand reaches inside his loose trousers
pulls out his cock
she takes it in her mouth and starts sucking
moon face serious, concentrated, satisfied
me shocked that she does this while all are watching
and jealousy bites me cold
did i bring her a towel for this ?

ABOUT HAPPINESS

a discussion
a logical explanation
--and if that´s not what I feel ?
springloaded rationality counters at once
take two steps to the left, turn
and jump !
infallible
if you believe

NO PLACE

no foot to stand on
grabbing at the ropes
ocean churning and swelling
opening ravenous maws

my song is the sea
in every motion of her body
my song is at sea
with no ground
with no footing
and no bottom