Sometimes

sometimes when it´s bad
in the deserts of my heart
nighttimes below freezing
running on empty
my scorpions, my scorpions
arched to strike me
to kill me
and daytimes
empty searing heat
burning : my heart burning
burning : the skies burning
burning : running on empty

AND FALL

a posse of well-equipped cyclists
pass fast
uniform
talking man talk
about the misery of contemporary love
sipping vitamin water for enhanced performance
and beneath the armour
the physical and moral exhaustion
of tax-farmers and their dependents

SUNDAY MORNING

sitting with you in the kitchen
the glass door of the oven mirrors your foot in its shoe
practical, down-to-earth, material
triggering love desire despair
you talk, i want to fuck you
i listen, thinking no chance, no way,
not even worth trying
we have three minutes before i have to go

a parting kiss
i take your breasts in my hands
fleetingly, longing
maybe later ?
this afternoon maybe ?

melancholy and blue

i watched the terrifying beauty of the sea
i thought of the will o´wisp
i thought of your breasts
one day you will leave me
and will i then destroy myself ?
cocaine, alcohol and similar crimes against body and soul ?

it has been so beautiful my love

I LOST SOUL

i´ve lost
soul, something´s gone
something i never had ?
and this long history
these long histories
are tearing me up inside
what do i need ?
the madonna of the strange seas
and above all
me

LOST SOUL

so heavy is me
shouting, screaming, crying
tskk ! hisses the mother inside me
good that i have a strong heart
otherwise
this
would tear me apart

WHERE OR WHAT ?

a parking lot

in a poorly lit undercroft

earnest ads for samaritans

crumpled beer cans

dark oil stains on the uneven concrete

behind a pillar a used condom

where she

at three a.m. after the club

had downed her panties and upped her skirt

and they had had a good time

drunken and urgent

unaware that the security guard had them on the low resolution surveillance screen

watching horny, envious

irritated when a voice at the glass pane

asked for a taxi number

couldn´t see properly anyway

just the movements

and where or what is life ?