forgetful and careless

a poison arrow pierces my skin:
you´re a cypher hiding stupidity
you´re a headless, heartless servant
a stinking bucket of broken eggs
compromised through and through

my stomach turns
again
i must remember to stock up on the antidote

my accumulated feelings
locked in moral conflict
with the inner executioner
mesmerises me
help !
where´s mummy ? jesus ? daddy ?
help me !
must i really stand frozen
the lifelong prisoner
my love of wisdom too shallow ?
no, no and three times no !

on call

the pits of my stomach are adjusting to being awake
o god save me, daddy, mummy, help!
set my world to rights
´cos i can´t
and somebody should
i´m just maladjusted words and irregular breaths
if only i can get my pepsins in order
before i´m called !

7:20 P.M.

she sits in an armchair
i walk over
and sit on her knees
run my fingers up inside her t-shirt
hold both breasts in my hands
kiss her.
heaven !